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Louis found himself in the middle of the two of them. He didn't exptect Roy to stop, but Blair didn't relent either. Startled at first he kept thrashing and yelling at Roy and everytime Louis thought he got him off, they started it again. Louis wasn't weak, neither of them really was with all the work all of them were doing every single day, but he wasn't strong enough to keep two people apart who both wanted to get at each others throat. Louis was almost surprised Roy didn't change his target, …

Louis had to stop by his trailer once more to get some things, stage plans and sketches he had to bring over eventually anyway. It was odd, it was almost time for the show, but he didn't change. This was so much harder on his own, when his head still hurt and his eyes burnt. Louis rolled up the paper, then stepped out again happy that it didn't rain yet. On his way to the big tent however he heard his name called out in urgency. He furrowed his brows, continued with quicker step and eventually r…

"I... can't say I am very versed in customs and religions of this time." When he was young churches were big, grandious even and the more people came to pray the better. Otohas order almost seemed the opposite, secretive and exclusive. Was that odd? He couldn't say, he lived in so many different times, who could say what was normal? "Well I presume capturing a goddess can be a lucrative business, I don't think they were wrong in telling you it's dangerous. What I'm saying is though, you're not u…

Louis ate a little, not because he was hungry, but because he needed to. He was still human after all, partly at least. The others ate too, though he wasn't sure if it served any purpose, or if it was just a habit of some sorts. What about Blair? Louis sighed. He felt like he failed him somehow and as if he didn't take his current predicament serious enough. He wasn't sure how much he could trust him, but if he was telling the truth, then Louis owed him. How selfish and self absorbed they all we…

"Hah... maybe sometimes I am.", Caelan admitted with a smile, then leaned in for another kiss. "I just want you to relax, laugh a little, maybe fight me over feeling down." At least some small anger did distract him from being sad and gloomy most of the time, but Caelan pretty much meant everything he said and he didn't think too much about how it came across. He wasn't thinking about ways to tease Ronan, he just said what he thought would fit in the moment and would make Ronan feel better. Stil…

Louis felt as lost and alone as always. He wasn't sure who Blair meant when he said not all of them were against him, were cold hearted monsters. Blair was the furthest from that as he still retained some humanity, or so it seemed. Whether his worry for Louis was true or not, he couldn't tell. Meanwhile Louis felt it too, what he was transforming into, not only at night and during the shows, maybe even more so when he felt like himself. He was able to cry for Leila, he was able to worry for Josi…

"No, for you. It is a long journey and we don't have any horses or money to sleep in beds at night. I know she can heal your body, but that is exhausting for her too. You've never been away from the monastery, right?", Genji asked him, knowing fully well how a journey like this was a toll on someone's body. He'd be faster alone too. "Otoha contained the curse for now, but it will come back too and I don't know what happens then. I don't want to hurt you again." Another factor and they'd travel f…

"Ich weiß nicht, ob ich dasselbe für dich getan hätte...", murmelte er beschämt. Seine unzähmbare Wut hatte ihn doch erst in diese Misere geritten, wäre er wirklich in der Lage Ronan zu verzeihen, hätte er Rain etwas angetan? Oder hätte er ihn hier und auf der Stelle niedergestreckt? Er liebte ihn immer noch, von ganzem Herzen, er hatte ihn nie vergessen und war nie über ihn hinweggekommen und niemals wieder hatte er jemanden so sehr geliebt wie er Ronan geliebt hatte. Gerade fühlte es sich aber…

Caelan hatte sich immer schon schnell von Ronan überzeugen lassen. Damals wie auch jetzt glaubte er, dass er besser daran tat das Denken anderen Leuten zu überlassen. Auch wenn Ronan manchmal zu emotional und träumerisch war, Caelan wollte an seine Träume glauben, an eine Zukunft die er sich selbst nicht ausmalen konnte. Er konnte sich nicht recht vorstellen wie er weitermachen sollte, hier von allen Orten auf dieser Welt, an dem nur Menschen lebten denen allen er so viel genommen hatte. Er frag…

"You'll be fine...", Caelan reiterated, but he truly lost focus on that topic at the moment. It wasn't important anyhow, he didn't lie to Ronan, he'd do just fine. Bein polite and well behaved was really enough for Caelans father, especially when he felt the need to apologize for Caelans existence anyway. He'd have plenty to say without Ronan having to respond. Whatever, Ronan had other plans than worrying about Caelans family right now too, it seemed. "I'm not teasing you...", Caelan complained…

"Ich weiß, ich weiß...", murmelte Caelan, der es irgendwie nicht akzeptieren, oder verstehen konnte, wie man ihm alles so einfach verzeihen konnte und wie man ihn immer noch beschützen wollte. Hätte Ronan Ina oder Rain getötet, wäre er dann ebenso verständnisvoll? Würde er das einfach verstehen können? Vielmehr glaubte er, er hätte Ronan laufen lassen, aber hätte ihn nie wieder sehen wollen. Selbst lieben konnte er ihn scheinbar nicht so sehr wie Ronan es verdient hatte. Verdammt. "Ich... ich we…

"You'll do great, trust me. Just be yourself.", Caelan tried to assure Ronan. His father always wanted a hard working, well-read, intelligent son, Ronan was just that, everything Caelan wasn't. He'd do just great and he really didn't need to be nervous despite the gripes Caelan had with his old man. He was the only one that could pose an issue in the first place, all the servants and town people would love Ronan too, Caelan was sure. And his dog wasn't an issue for anyone, really. Caelan was mos…

"Hättest du nicht.", lächelte Caelan, aber er wusste Ronans Worte zu schätzen. Ronan hatte seine eigenen Probleme schon immer herunter gespielt. Genau genommen hatte Caelan das auch, weil er immer das Gefühl hatte, dass es Ronan viel schwerer im Leben hatte und Caelan sich nur wegen Kleinigkeiten beschwerte. Caelan blickte auf zu Ronan und seufzte leise. "Tut mir Leid.", murmelte er. Er wollte nicht schwierig sein und er wollte Ronan nicht die Freude an ihrem Wiedersehen verderben. Er hatte ihm …

Caelan tried his best to always make Ronan feel like he belonged right where he was and how he was. It wasn't always easy, but there was nothing Caelan wanted to change about him, whyever that was. "That's okay.", Caelan smiled at him. "As long as you feel better now." Distracting Ronan seemed to work wonders sometimes, but again, he didn't want him to feel like he wasn't listening to his worries and complains. If he rather wanted to help Caelan with the horses, that was fine for him, if only it…

"Oh uh... ich habe dich schon um zu viel gebeten.", erwiderte Caelan der Ronan wirklich nicht noch mehr Umstände machen wollte. Ein Bad, etwas zu trinken, etwas zu essen, einen sicheren Ort. Das reichte nun wirklich, er musste ihm nicht auch noch alles andere geben, Caelan war alt genug um irgendwie auf sich selbst aufzupassen. Dann hätte er seine Kleidung eben gewaschen, wenn er Gelegenheit bekommen hätte, aber im Moment war er eigentlich gar nicht sicher, ob er dieses Zelt in nächster Zeit ver…

"I don't want to be apart from you either.", Caelan smiled softly. Ronan needed to hear it, despite Caelan telling him all the time. "Nothing's wrong with you, you're okay, alright?" Caelan put his finger below Ronans chin and lifted it up a little to be able to smile at him. He didn't mean to make Ronan doubt himself too much. "I just need you to tell me sometimes how to make you feel better." That's all he wanted really and he didn't want to push Ronan in the wrong direction or make him feel l…

Was machte Caelan hier eigentlich? Wie konnten sie beide so tun als wären andere an Caelans Entscheidungen Schuld und nicht er selbst? Sie hatten schon darüber diskutiert und Ronan hatte ihm gesagt, dass er die Schuld bei anderen suchen wollte und selbst wenn nicht, dass er ihm vergeben würde. Waren das nicht nut die unsinnigen Gefühle eines Jungen der schon lange gestorben war? Caelan war nicht mehr derselbe aufbrausende junge Mann in den Ronan sich verliebt hatte. Er war genau genommen eher da…

"Is that a bad thing, do you have enough of me?", Caelan asked giggling. No way. They'd have some more time until Ronan had to return home and then some until the winter would seperate them again. Maybe Caelan would visit anyway, just to check up on Ronan and make sure he was okay. "You know you can talk to me anytime.", he told him. There was no need for cryptic ways of being upset, or worried, Ronan could just tell Caelan if he wanted to. "We'll have a good time, okay? No work for once." Ronan…

"Nein bist du bestimmt nicht, aber du hast schon immer alles in dich hinein gefressen, ob du es nun gut verstecken konntest oder nicht. Du musst vor mir wirklich nicht so tun als wäre irgendetwas an deiner Situation einfach." Vielleicht sah er es zu eng, aber das glaubte er eigentlich nicht. Die Wölfe verloren diesen Krieg, Tag um Tag starben mehr von ihnen und ihr Lebensraum wurde kleiner und kleiner. Natürlich lastete das auf Ronans Schultern, ob er nun König war oder nicht. Es gab keinen Grun…

"Ich wollte dich damit nicht kritisieren. Egal welche Entscheidungen du triffst, du wirst nicht immer alle beschützen können, so ist das nunmal, auch ich habe gute Männer verloren. Das heißt aber nicht, dass dir diese Schicksale nicht schwer auf dem Herzen liegen. Meinetwegen brauchst du nicht so tun als wäre es nich so.", erläuterte Caelen seine Absichten. Er war gerne für Ronan da und auch wenn er kein König war, so gab es viele Leben für die er eigentlich verantwortlich gewesen wäre. Er verst…