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"I know, it's a shame. I know a few of them that I never showed you, and where they bloom, though, and I'd be happy to show you one day.", he suggested with a smile. Yujin would do anything for Richards sake, even if he concurrently doubted himself; there was nothing he'd lay off from, nothing he thought he couldn't do, and the audacity to just want to try things was probably enough to keep him alive past whatever point he'd crossed at some section in his life that led him here in the first plac…

"I know, and you know, too.", Yujin laughed without much fanfare. Richard, to him and like this, was akin to a stuffed animal that he had free reign over - he could grab him, if anything, and hold him tight over night, but not much else; their relationship, while not at a standstill at the moment, had at the very least reached an impasse which neither of them wanted to push past. Boundaries that were set in place, as well as their own personalities seemingly made it impossible to do so - Yujin w…

That he said, but Yujin knew that Richard had to be able to be swayed by something - whatever it was, he didn't care much, but it was apparent to him that it had to be something that he had to come up with in the first place, no matter what it turned out to be. Would Richard hate him if he treated him like an animal, unsure of what to do next? In a way, they both were tiptoeing around that line, just to not earn the ire of Richard as he was, shy and scared without any way out. Was this a life wo…

Enticing Richard to spend time with him was about as easy as getting him to admit to his own shortcomings, and often enough, Richard decided he was about as flawed as people could get, and that all of this was something that he couldn't deal with. Everything was his fault, and for Yujin to be able to mend those wounds ever so slightly, it seemed almost as if they both needed to work on themselves from the ground up. "Trying is good enough.", he assured the blonde, knowing that eventually, someti…

"I would like that, I think we could both use one." Yujin was in favor of any idea, no matter how short or long, as long as it ensured that Richard left the bed and this room for once, just to get a change of scenery and see that the world outside his own four walls wasn't as scary as he thought it to be. "Huh? What do you mean?" Not wanting anything to change was, in fact, not much of a favorable outcome - Richard would eventually start rotting alive, in the loosest sense of the word, and Yujin…

“Is there anything that would motivate you to get up?”, he asked Richard, already brainstorming ideas in the back of his head. No amount of food or love would do that, and no empty promises would get a broken man to move from his grave that he’d picked to rot in, but maybe a challenge, to make him strive for something better than this - a stressor, of sorts, to push him places. “I know it’s hard, but nothing’s going to change if you just lay here and watch the day move by.” He was too lax with h…

Yujin was scared for no real reason - he was simply looking for an excuse, wasn't he? For Richard to rest in the palm of his hand and be safe, that was what he wanted, but never to lock him up, or force him to be with him. Yujin wasn't like that - he loved freedom above all else, and yet, he had someone by his side that didn't even want to move, or leave, and he wondered if, judging by his fathers continued jealousy, he'd ever become like him, obsessed with the fact that he had a lover devoted t…

Nothing could go wrong like this - he was holding onto Richard, and he was holding him tight. Yujin didn't want to let go, nevermore to begin with, and just make sure he'd stay warm and save in this embrace, realize that there was nothing else that would happen to him, not as long as he was there, and that it all boiled down to having to try and let go of the things that bothered him. Maybe Yujin was expecting too much, and even the apology he received for the ounth time felt grating, but it tru…

Doubt was like die cast on a board - once done, the rolls wouldn’t be able to be undone, their nature unfurled before anyone’s eyes, given they’d watch the display in the first place. What, if not a bothersome gambit was life? Yujin knew that thoughts like these plagued him, but it wasn’t about how Richard wouldn’t accept him for who he was, but much rather that there was no space for him in that downwards spiral that he slipped down upon, and no matter how hard he tried to grasp onto Richard, h…

Yujin was the one that felt like he'd done something so fundamentally wrong, it would only be right for Richard to tell him to leave and not come back, but instead of that, he simply fled from his touch, letting him know that it was neither wanted nor appreciated at the moment, and it led to his shoulders sagging and his head hanging a bit low for a second. To keep the distance that Richard set alive, Yujin stayed on the bed for the time being, watching him and the kitten on the carpet in front …

Richards intentions and problems were obvious to Yujin - he knew that he meant no harm, but that he harmed himself plenty on accident with what was going on in his head, and he could simply not stop any of that. Yujin knew, and he resented himself for his inability to do nothing about it. But what, in all things known to man, would he do anyway? Happiness wasn't like a forlorn fruit that eventually grew on trees, waiting to ripen and for a bird to digest it before it fell to the ground, bruised …

When Richard needed him, Yujin was there for him without asking too many questions - always. It didn't matter if what ailed him was trivial, even if it rarely was, or if it was a more hard-hitting thing, not in the slightest; he was happy to help and pick Richard back up, any shard of him that he could catch with those nimble fingers of his, and fix them back in place. Right now, however, even he felt lost, in a maelstrom of emotions and the realizations of another man, and for once, he might ha…

Yujin didn't even know what to do with all of the alone time he found himself throwing around now - either, he had simply had bad luck and Richard was not in the mood because of the nature that this day bore, or he had genuinely fucked up and he wanted to bash his own head in over it. Rightfully so, he believed, but that only led to him not being able to concentrate on anything once the time came for him to best Muhan; he still sucked at it and didn't manage to do anything meaningful today, whic…

Yujin wondered, still, if his gift was out of place and the moment Richards mouth moved and words fell upon his ears, Yujin knew anyway that it was in vain to attempt something or the other to tide this over with. There was, in fact, nothing he could do any maybe it hurt, but the stinging would subside, once his heart felt like it could comfortably expand with every beat it took - Richard was squeezing it, not on purpose, and Yujin smiled through it, although he felt a bit deflected, maybe like …

Was Richard appalled by his gift? Yujin could hardly tell, and every ounce of getting through the thick muck of uncertainty made it worse, like bile had risen in his throat and he was having anxious heart pangs, for better or worse. Was Richard not impressed? Not having fun? He gulped, but it was all for nothing - Yujin was imagining the worst in his head right now, only for it to dissipate in a second as his smile grew into a giggle. This was, well, it was everything he hoped for, wasn't it? No…

Life wasn't easy out here, he understood that now, but he also wanted to know more - Ignatius knew that his entire existence was on par with what people would claim nobility was like, and that he had little to fear in the department of, well, anything, but that didn't mean that he didn't have what it took when it came down to where he was needed. For now, however, he wanted to lay low and not actually bother himself with the hubris that was his own under- or misunderstanding of a situation what …

Back in the water he carefully washed off all blemishes he could find, top to bottom, stealing little glances at Azrael when he could - a peek wouldn't hurt, much less would downright asking question do so, but he knew that yesterday, they had talked a lot and presently, it was better for them to simply align themselves to Azraels wishes, before he exploded and just dumped him somewhere for his incessant persona and the ceaseless need to ask many more questions than just the last one he had alre…

Yujin knew he either would strike gold or have to abandon this plan and real back - Richard was prepared for his shenanigans at times, but he knew he, too, overdid it and that there was no way to make up for certain things if he didn't think about it beforehand. Right now, they rested in his hands, the two little rascals of them, and Yujin seemed to be happy that they were so full of energy. "You?" He cocked his head to the side, like a dog that was trying to understand saomething but got confus…

With a quick break spot found, Ignatius was delighted to get out of most of his clothes and washed them, alongside himself, in the cold creek that they had found - he didn't complain, after all, cold water wasn't something out of the ordinary, and instead, seemingly had the time of his life as he got to finally relax a bit and examine most of his body, safe for the parts cavered by underwear, for any spots and bruises and injuries, as well as finally getting rid of all the blood that had stuck o…

There was an eerie silence between them and Ignatius didn't like it. Had he done something wrong? Sure, he had managed to piss this man off yesterday but for him to actually be so pearl-clutching about the issue it felt like there had to be something else in the air; he wasn't a fan of that, much less was he happy about the ordeal that was transpiring at the very moment. Scarving down the breakfast, he was silent otherwise, and simply nodded as Azrael was being rough as usual - maybe they had, i…