Suchergebnisse

Lucy felt odd and Josiah confused her. She wasn't sure what he thought about her, if she was still a little girl to him and if not what was she? All of this was confusing, but for the longest time she wanted more, she wanted him, not just for herself, but close. They spent so much time with each other and she enjoyed every single moment, whether they laughed together or cried together. Sometimes though Josiah wasn't truly here with her, or he brushed over her compliments as if she didn't try to …

"You don't have to achieve things to earn compliments. If you're starting like that, I'm telling you that you achieved being you by growing up and other people grew up into people I like less.", she answered. There was definitely a too humble. "You always think you're not good enough, but you're good enough for me, better than good enough. Doesn't that count for anything?" Sometimes it felt like the only person Josiah cared about was Louis and it hurt, especially today. He'd take compliments fro…

"But you earned them, by being you and by making me laugh and if I happen to like your height, I'm inclined to let you know." If he was taller he'd barely fit into his bed, how did James do that anyway? Maybe he had his bed in the trailer sideways? Or he curled up everytime he went to sleep. "Well they had to make it work with the macarons somehow, right?", Lucy asked with a smile. There surely were recipes available. Where those expensive? She didn't even know. Compared to Josiah she had so lit…

"When have you ever just accepted a compliment, hm? Maybe I just like you just the way you are.", Lucy asked with a smile. Josiah lived in his own head more times than he joined them in the real world, she knew that, but she was happy even more that he spent his time with her, in the here and now. "You can still grow, you're not that old. Just eat enough.", Lucy giggled a bit. "Spinach popcorn sounds disgusting but it would look neat if it was green, don't you think?" Josiah was the one who had …

"Not all my compliments are fabrications, actually none of them are. You're so bad at receiving them.", Lucy complained with a smile, but it was true. Josiah never wanted to see what was right with himself, only what wasn't and even then he made things up. "Maybe if not for the meat break, you'd be taller.", she teased, sticking out her tongue for a moment. "Well surely color is achievable with something that has a lot of it's own...? But not much taste I guess. Spinach maybe? Blueberries? Straw…

"You're tall enough, perfect even. When I talk to James I always have to bend my neck uncomfortably, your height is better.", Lucy chuckled. "I think you just wanted to make up the nutrient you missed out on to catch up with him." Josiah was cute and he was somewhat still the same, or would be, if Louis was still the same too. There was no way Josiah would forget about him and since Lucy cared for him deeply, maybe she should help Louis, to help Josiah, or something of that sort. "Who else? Also…

"I think it could have worked out, with some careful thinking.", Lucy chuckled, "But then you'd probably hadn't grown as tall as you are now." Suddenly she started laughing as she remembered something. "Wait, wasn't that how we got you to eat again? I think Louis was growing a bit taller and you were a bit behind and so we told you it's because you didn't eat right and we didn't need to say more for you to suddenly chow down a whole chicken." It had been so easy back then, but it felt easy right…

"I remember the times when you refused to eat meat altogether.", Lucy chuckled. That was a long time ago, but Josiah eventually didn't do all too well without any meat, so he relented. He was always so sweet and loving and even a chicken or pigeon was too precious for him to kill for his own sake. He changed, a bit at least, he probably still didn't want to kill anything, but he became a man and he felt dutybound at times. If it had to be done for the childrens or Lucys sake, he'd do it. He alwa…

"Most of the time, yes. But sometimes I just can't be around fatty stuff.", Lucy chuckled. Somtimes she just craved an apple or a pear. Winter was coming, so they'd not have any then and it was back to meat and bread and maybe sometimes some cheese. At least milk was around for the whole year. She wondered if they could have their own, for fresh milk, caring for one or two more animals wouldn't be that hard, right? "They are pretty at least, aren't they? So many colors... I wonder how they make …

Lucy looked up smiling when the door to Josiahs trailer finally opened. She quickly got up to take one of the plates off his hands and put it on the table. That gave him a hand to close the door behind him as well. "Thanks Jo.", she smile, sitting down again. "It's some incense... I hope you don't mind. I thought it might be nice, not that the smell otherwise bothers me. I didn't ask what it's supposed to smell of to be fair." Lucy giggled a little bit and took a dramatic whiff of the smoke ling…

It wasn't that easy, none of this was easy. Louis would love to talk, or simply not be alone, to be with his friend that had been like his brother years ago. He would today, he'd already given in before and let him come close again, there was no use pushing him away for the sake of making him leave, but this was different now. He didn't want to hurt him, he didn't want to hurt anybody, but he couldn't be sure what would happen. Sure with Roy it was close to the show, he'd tried to fight back, hi…

"Yes.", Louis quickly answered. He'd try at least, he couldn't promise more than that. "Like what? You don't even know what I'm talking about..." With a sigh he looked at Josiah, who always had to corner him somewhere, who never gave him the space he asked for. Sometimes he'd not look for him for days, but that was a good thing. Instead now like many other times he forced Louis into a corner, making him feel even more trapped than he already was. He was trapped in this circus, tied to the ringma…

"I'll eat it.", Louis answered, he'd at least try, even though he was sure it was futile. He wasn't hungry and forcing anything down felt like a chore. Half human, half whatever it was, he wasn't even sure if he needed to eat, or if he could die. He wasn't like Roy, but he just got up again. Well he was still hurt and it seemed annoying to him, but he wasn't dead, not even out of comission for a while. "I can't be around anyone right now." Talking about it wouldn't help and Louis rather didn't s…

Josiah treated him like a wild animal that needed taming and maybe he wasn't too far off, but he had his reasons not to get too close to him. He wasn't scared of Josiah, he was scared of himself, but there was no way he could tell him and even if he could, he'd not understand, Louis didn't even understand anything himself. "I'll eat it. Just leave it.", he told him to get rid of him. Telling him he wasn't hungry wouldn't fly. He just wanted him to go. "I know. You can't help me." That was a more…

Lucy liked their plan for the night and she'd not bring up Louis again. She spent the day with Conny and just before the show found some time to visit Mary, who gave her more of that ointment. She had a bit more time to visit Alice too. They drank some tea together in her trailer, which she never visited before and she was surprised to find that Alice was actually very nice once she let Lucy in a bit. She gave Lucy some different tea for Josiah, saying it would help him rest during the night and…

"Pretty much, yes.", Lucy agreed with a smile. It almost felt normal yes, but Leila was missing painfully and Conny too. "I'm looking forward to it. It probably was something fantastical, knowing you." Lucy giggled again. She enjoyed the time with Josiah, especially when they just forgot their worries for once. Today it wasn't all too cloudy either, they actually got to see some sun. Maybe it would all work out better soon enough. "Yeah okay. I'm sorry I brought it up.", That dampened the mood a…

"Don't worry about it, you missed nothing.", Lucy chuckled. Someone had to look after Conny soon and even though she didn't want to burden Josiah with it, maybe he enjoyed to have something to do. He felt useless, she knew, but there was really no reason. He could also tackle the kids if he preferred Lucy to head over to Conny. "Wanna tell me about your dream?", she asked with a smile. Josiah and good dreams? That was a step in the right direction, wasn't it? "Feeling better? So the ointment hel…

Yesterday didn't go perfect and not how Lucy envisioned it. Louis was a sore topic but also kind of everything that circled in Josiahs head, even now, when there were so many other things going wrong. She overdid it and said too much, instead of simply being supportive. She was somewhat angry that Josiah always defended Louis, even about Luke. He'd been there, he saw what he did and yet he excused it by saying 'he had his reasons', whatever that was supposed to mean. Not that she could convince …

"You shouldn't struggle so much... some people can't be saved. I think the Louis we knew died in that fire... I don't think he'd ever come back, no matter how hard we wish for it." Much like Leila wouldn't come back, but Lucy left it at that for now. Josiah was already in a foul mood and she didn't want to make it worse. "I'm all good Jo.", she instead smiled and crawled into bed, holding the blanket up so Josiah could join under it. Once he lay down Lucy put her arm around him and softly presse…

"I'm not expecting you to be. Being friends isn't about who's doing a better job, or repaying everything the other does for you. It's not a contract. I don't expect anything in return." Has Louis told Josiah he was a bad friend? Was that why he was so cought up on it? "Josiah, you do more than you give yourself credit for. You stayed with Conny for so long, because she is your friend and she needed you. You're not expecting her to pay you back and I likewise don't expect you to repay me for brin…