"Would you like to find out then? Or would you rather rest?", the wolf questioned. Rest was not exactly a good definition for what he had in mind, yet, he didn't feel like pushing Richard into a direction that he didn't belong, much like he didn't feel as if he was entitled to do so. They'd do what they wanted, when they wanted - when it felt right - and as long as it didn't, there really was no need to push past ones boundaries that were set in stone just like that. Yujin liked to force himself, though, to wonder what life would be like without the boundaries that obviously existed, amidst the world that had long since lost use for those like him, those who were tied down by those who wanted to keep him on the ground - and he didn't mind, he could live out here, much like Richard was trying to survive, huddling together to keep all those broken pieces of his former body close, to seem somewhat cohesive, not lost or left alone, faded into nothingness. They both were messes, they were who they'd ought to be and who they called out for - and maybe, Yujin couldn't glue Richards broken pieces back into place with a bit of tar, yet, he could still offer parts of himself. "Hm, really fought? When you broke my ... no, when you ... hm. We only really had altercations and nothing major aside from the first time we met." His mind seemed sharp for a moment, maybe it was the lack of new information or the fact that he was fine in the first place - whatever the case, he tried to strive for better days. "Entitled, self-sufficient, maybe broken beyond repair as well. It's kind of like ... think of a music box, something that should work because it has no obvious blemishes, but once you wind it up, you realize that the cord is long gone and it's stuck repeating one or two of the same notes over and over again. No matter how much you try to fix it, it won't work, so you just pretend it's something else because it's useless for it's originally intended purpose." Something like a jewelry box, or storage of some kind, but definitely no music box. "You can't or you don't want to?"
In theory, Richard could, he could probably break most of is face and make him feel like he was weak, useless and not needed by the former prince, but Yujin knew better than that already - he was, without a doubt, someone that enjoyed being who he was for the time being, even if it was nothing that others would agree with. "Then it's winter all year around. There's one difference, though." The way the snow was hard and usually more icy during the summer days, but easier to traverse and not full of unexpected sinkholes - that was the only striking difference and Yujin knew that he was just blaming himself for something so silly. "If you say so, I won't let go." Yujin would hold him all night long, he was sure of that and if he let go, Richard was sure to come back to chase warmth, even when he was no longer awake either way. Whatever they did, it depended on either of them - and whatever they would do, it would most likely not give them an advantage in the first place, not over nightmares that were there to conquer. "Would you even prostitute yourself for anything?" Love wasn't a good excuse, not even a reasonable one and the fact that Yujin even had this thought was embarrassing enough, especially when he lay here, wanted nothing more than to cuddle and was still haunted by thoughts that came from everywhere and nowhere at once - he should have stopped his mouth from saying more bullshit a long while ago. "Dunno ... I mean, I wouldn't mind if you did, though?", the wolf suddenly mumbled - he wasn't even into that, probably and even then, he could at least try something new, something stupid, even if this kind of new - this kind of soft - was something to enjoy, not only for a moment, for a little while longer, for as long as he could. "Well, yes. But that doesn't mean I'm not into either, you know? When you bit me, that was actually nice.", he informed the blonde, wanting to pepper the spot he'd bit earlier with kisses again, but instead, he moved slightly upwards to press one onto Richards lips and return the gesture of stroking the blondes back. "What do you think?"
In theory, Richard could, he could probably break most of is face and make him feel like he was weak, useless and not needed by the former prince, but Yujin knew better than that already - he was, without a doubt, someone that enjoyed being who he was for the time being, even if it was nothing that others would agree with. "Then it's winter all year around. There's one difference, though." The way the snow was hard and usually more icy during the summer days, but easier to traverse and not full of unexpected sinkholes - that was the only striking difference and Yujin knew that he was just blaming himself for something so silly. "If you say so, I won't let go." Yujin would hold him all night long, he was sure of that and if he let go, Richard was sure to come back to chase warmth, even when he was no longer awake either way. Whatever they did, it depended on either of them - and whatever they would do, it would most likely not give them an advantage in the first place, not over nightmares that were there to conquer. "Would you even prostitute yourself for anything?" Love wasn't a good excuse, not even a reasonable one and the fact that Yujin even had this thought was embarrassing enough, especially when he lay here, wanted nothing more than to cuddle and was still haunted by thoughts that came from everywhere and nowhere at once - he should have stopped his mouth from saying more bullshit a long while ago. "Dunno ... I mean, I wouldn't mind if you did, though?", the wolf suddenly mumbled - he wasn't even into that, probably and even then, he could at least try something new, something stupid, even if this kind of new - this kind of soft - was something to enjoy, not only for a moment, for a little while longer, for as long as he could. "Well, yes. But that doesn't mean I'm not into either, you know? When you bit me, that was actually nice.", he informed the blonde, wanting to pepper the spot he'd bit earlier with kisses again, but instead, he moved slightly upwards to press one onto Richards lips and return the gesture of stroking the blondes back. "What do you think?"
Looking back, it maybe is like the toy carts you rode when you were a kid. But those toy carts could never go beyond the walls of the lawn. We want to follow the rugged concrete road beyond the wall. As we've grown, we've decided to leave behind the toy cart.