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Yes, wasn't it funny that Louis needed to get away from the others and the only place he could go to was here? They were easily entertained, weren't they? And Louis was a clown, here to entertain, he might as well not fight his role. How fitting a job he had, but there was a difference there. On stage he was charming, witty and funny, but here he was the embodiment of a tragedy and that was sometimes more entertaining anyway. "I honestly hoped you'd be less loud...", Louis huffed, but his presen…

While Louis usually just stayed quiet amongst the others, almost as if he was just shy sometimes unless spoken to, here he behaved differently. His expression was darker than usual, as if he had to match the air around him. Like a cat making its fur all fuzzy to appear bigger he tried to stay firm, especially with all of them around him. He didn't come here to chat, he just wanted to trod after them, maybe slip into their midst if he heard some footsteps approaching him. He didn't need anyone el…

Of course they wouldn't just silently acknowledge Louis being around them, but at least they didn't try to be his friend or fake anything and he didn't have to hide either. Even if they picked on him for being not quite like them, even if they knew more than anyone else what Louis tried to do for the others day in and out and judged him for it, at least they knew who he was. There were some mysteries still. Why was he only half like them? Why was he here in the first place? Why did the ringmaste…

Leila was getting on Louis nerves and he grid his teeth. "I don't want him to crawl back to me.", he let out. Why did everybody expect him to be Josiahs best friend? He didn't want to be close to him, Josiah was better off without him and they lived in two completely different worlds, yet everybody tried pushing Louis towards Josiah for no other reason than the fact that they were friends at some point years ago and if he didn't accommodate to Josiah, when he didn't talk him up or give him arbit…

"We're not alike.", Louis answered. They grew up together but that was it at this point. Only because they wouldn't leave each others side when they were younger, didn't mean they had to act like this until the end of time. Leila didn't even know them that long. She joined after the fire, so she could have only overheard other people stuck in the past. Leila was better off using her energy for Josiah and not for Louis. He didn't need cheering up and he also didn't need someone else to be mad at …

The caravan was moving neatly and as long as no trailer got stuck, there was nothing much to do but walk. The children were looked after even without Josiah. Louis was soon approached however, the silence cut and he looked into Leilas smiling face. "I'm fine.", he was quick to answer, why was everybody asking him that all the time? He wasn't the one anyone should worry about, Josiah was. "He's hurt quite badly... I told him to rest and checked him through, because that idiot wouldn't admit to an…

"Nothing to be sorry about...", Louis mumbled. Josiah was the only one making this a big deal. Louis had other worries than some scars. "You're reading too much into my actions." No it was better for Josiah to stay away from Louis. He only put him in danger and aside from that, they fought constantly anyway. Why did Josiah make everything so hard on Louis? No matter what he did, he didn't stay away and maybe he shouldn't have given in in the first place. Now the situation got even worse. "Why? H…

"What? Do you mean the scars? It's fine and it's not like that's fixable. Your wounds are." A good chunk of his skin was riddled in scars, in his face, on his arms, legs, torso, but what did it matter? For his job it didn't and otherwise they all were freaks. The children were scared, but he doubted that had to do with the scars primarily and even if, he didn't need to be their friend either. Those who cared about him didn't mind. "You shouldn't be so attached to me...", Louis mumbled silently. …

"What happened is not your fault.", Louis reiterated. "I don't blame you for it either. And I'm fine." That was a lie, but he couldn't explain what was wrong at all, so why bother at this point? "You don't need to prove anything to me, nor do you need to make up for anything. I just... I might not act like it, but I do care about you and when you are silly like this... I'd rather not have to worry about you this much..." He sighed again. Seeing Josiah like this, so hurt and knowing that he went …

"Sometimes I am not sure if you are angry at me, or if you feel guilty for... well there is no reason for you to feel guilty, but I am not sure you know that." The fire wasn't Josiahs fault, he didn't start it, nor did he force Louis to run back in. Maybe it was just the fact that Louis pulled away from Josiah since then, maybe Josiah felt like Louis blamed him. Either way, something stood between them, he felt it, but he couldn't make out what exactly it was. There were so many reasons for Josi…

"They don't and you know that. Everyone worries for you. Lily volunteered yesterday because she could see that you needed to rest as well.", Louis replied. Josiah made his own life so unnecessarily hard. "Sorry. Just... you wouldn't listen to me otherwise. When do you ever listen to me?" Louis sighed. Josiah seemed to try and fight him on everything he said and at the same time he didn't want to be a burden? That made little sense. If Josiah lied or not, Louis would see in a moment. "I won't any…

"You're a burden by being difficult like that.", Louis replied with a sigh. If Josiah would have just laid down, Louis would already be able to go about his day. There wasn't much to do today anyway, see that no children were lost, though Louis thought that it might maybe be for the better and push some of the trailers if they got stuck. Josiah couldn't help with the trailers anyway, so there was no reason for him to be like this. Frankly it was annoying, very much so. It was unnecessary and stu…

Josiah didn't give in, not at all and of course the children took his side. Louis was the bad guy, always, which was alright, but he also tried to look out for them and Josiah. He didn't understand why he was so stubborn. He could barely stand, he would keel over halfway and that would help no one. I Louis hadn't said anything, would he just rest? Was this just about winning a stupid fight Louis didn't even want to have? Josiah shooed the children away, they remained alone, well and Lucas stayed…

Josiah was stubborn, of course and Louis shot him a deadly glance. "Alright?", he asked, "You look like you can barely stand." To prove his point he shoved Josiah the slightest bit, not harsh at all, not in a way he'd think Josiah would actually fall backwards, it was if anything a tiny push, one that hopefully made him relent. How stubborn could one person be and for what reason? Was there even a way for Louis to win this argument, this fight? Why would Josiah not let himself be helped. This wa…

Louis woke up early as always. He got dressed and left his trailer. Breakfast would consist of some bread and cheese, so he started to already clean up the fireplace and pack stools back into one of the trailers they put out yesterday. One by one more people woke up and crawled out of their trailers. Some sat down to eat, some helped, some went down to the stream. Louis didn't expect any help and he never asked either, but he also didn't mind anyone helping, as long as he didn't need to talk. He…

Josiah was needlessly stubborn and Louis left him alone the whole day. Not even asking him to slow down. Now that it was late and he mentioned it, Josiah chewed his head off. Whatever. Louis was glad to be alone for a bit. He finished up washing Josiahs clothes, then he added his pants to the pile before he went into the water himself to wash up. He rubbed all the mud off of his body as best as he could, then got out, dried his body and got into his fresh clothes. He took the wet pile of fabric …

"The only person calling you a burdon is yourself.", Louis responded. Josiah was so hellbent on his fantasies it was annoying. He was always the laid back one, the happy one. Louis was always the hard working one because other than Josiah his talent didn't just fall into his lap. That hardly meant Josiah was a burdon though. He just had more time doing his own thing. "If you wouldn't be like this, I wouldn't need to worry." If anything any gray hair and wrinkles would be Josiahs fault if this we…

"It's called receiving. People like you and you are stubborn for no reason.", Louis replied with another sigh. Why did Josiah have to play the martyr all the time? It was almost as if he tried to match Louis pain sometimes, as if he felt the need to attone for something that was absolutely not his fault. Maybe Louis gave him the impression he was angry at him or that he blamed him for what happened, but he had entirely different reasons to keep his distance. Josiah got hurt because he didn't, be…

"It's selfish not to take care of yourself and make others worry for you all the time.", Louis grumbled. Josiah never took care of himself and he put himself down all the time when nobody else thought about him like that. "That won't make any difference in my face." Louis saw no reason in lying to himself about that. He knew how he looked and that he was scary if he didn't put on his makeup or a mask. It didn't matter that others told Louis it wasn't that bad, in the end they were just used to i…

"You should take better care of yourself.", Louis grumbled. Even now Josiah was unreasonable. Louis couldn't force him to lay down, but he didn't hide the fact the he didn't condone the decisions Josiah made today either. Louis wasn't even sure if this had been an accident or not. For all that was worth, nothing happened to Josiah since then, but that didn't mean it couldn't happen again. Louis would have probably been less paranoid if not for Alices words, but maybe she just toyed with him and …