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"I''ll figure it out myself, then.", he told Louis with a smile that could only tell so much. In fact, there was nothing that he could tell him at all, and there wasn't anything that he had hoped to achieve with telling him that. Louis was, in the end, selfish to a fault and also busy, too. Neither of them should help the other in that regard, but Jo, ever the same, had hoped for some advice in any way. almost as if he wasn't sure on who to ask, or who it could be that wanted to give him a helpi…

There was nothing to compare this situation to, much like there was nothing to explain here. Jo wanted to talk to Louis, plain and simple, just tell him he wanted to perform tonight and that was that, but it also begged the question of who would look after Conny - who had time for that in the first place? Now his own head reeled, he hadn't thought this through, and he wasn't going to bank on having her fall asleep like last night. It simply wasn't possible. Perturbed, maybe even annoyed, he grun…

Lucy seemed to stir immediately and Jo felt bad for waking her in the first place - there theoretically wasn't even a need for it, and in preparation for the coming day, he'd completely forgotten that it wasn't worth waking her in the first place. "I ... ah ... before you came here yesterday ... no, not ... fuck ..." Jo looked better rested than the last day, but there definitely was a sense of urgency in the back of his mind, and he had so much to wrangle, all of a sudden. Was that why he'd bee…

Not all of that was something he'd take for granted - Jo was often secretive, even with himself, and letting someone into his temple of solace wasn't something he'd do because he needed to feel better about himself, but because he knew that some people just couldn't go where he was going anyway. Some of them didn't have the luxury of silence, of a moment of respite, but he had enough of that and often yearned for company instead, which was probably why he also indulged Lucy - tonight wasn't fun,…

"Mhm.", Jo dismissed it, simply for the fact that he really wasn't in the mood to dream about Louis, too. He had enough of this man for a night and keeping his thoughts occupied with him only spelled disaster - he'd be inadvertendly reminded of the fact that he was doing nothing but making himself feel paranoid over something entirely outside of his control, all the while he thought himself to be better than that in the same breath. "I appreciate it, I really do.", he told Lucy, knowing that a h…

He knew, too. There was something that he couldn't grasp, and no matter how hard he tried to understand Louis, it didn't work. Nothing got through to him, and when he thought he finally did, Louis started going on about the same crap again, like a broken record, as if he'd explode if nobody else said what he wanted to say to Josiah. Whyever he felt the need to do that, Jo couldn't say, but he knew he could only wait for so long before it would happen again. Maybe keeping away from Louis altogeth…

"It's not something we can control, really.", he reminded her, and he was right about it, too. Whoever the ringmaster deemed as useless, or no longer needed, would go and disappear into the night that nobody ever saw coming. Jo wasn't having it anymore - he didn't want to believe any of those lies any longer or be compliant to them, yet, he couldn't do anything else at the moment and was forced to just accept it for what it was. Was it fate? Was it something nobody could control? He wasn't sure,…

Now that Arthur was gone, someone else was here and Josiah was left to wonder how many more of them would be crying in each others arms over Leilas death and maybe Lucas' disappearance. It was too much, there was no way of knowing, but they were all wallowing for their own reasons, be that as it may anyway. "He's fine, I'm sorry. I'll let you know next time he's here.", he assured Lucy and rubbed her back gently, as if she needed every piece of love that she could get in that very moment - Jo wo…

Arthur talked, which was nice, and Jo figured if he dozed off now, that would be for the best - he could blame it on fatigue, and Arthur would, in turn, not blame it on him for passing out mid-conversation like that, hopefully, but in reality, there was no way he'd be able to do any of that right now. "Yeah ..." That late indeed. Sure, they could go to bed, but who was to deny Arthur an extra hour of sleep, or maybe even some time alone tomorrow morning if he wanted to be knocked out cold? Not e…

With the little guy here, he could still sleep - Josiah just didn't not want any company, wasn't it that? He felt as if the moment he'd be alone, he'd probably go off his rocker and just be a mess himself, knowing that he could always try to save himself into someone elses arms, but at the cost of being nothing more than a burden to many more than just himself. There was this absolute misery of understanding something that he didn't quite like, or get for that matter. "It's probably around midni…

Jo was done eventually and wiped the paint off altogether - it was useless to him in the first place, he wouldn't perform tonight. What use was it if he occupied a spot others could need? None, absolutely zero, and he'd not force himself onto anyone either, knowing fully well that it would hurt others more to see him as a miserable heap of sadness than if he just forced out a smile. Tonight was absolutely done for; what was it again? Not everything could always go his way, sure, but he felt as i…

There wasn’t any energy left in him, not a lot at least and that which he had, he didn’t want to use to argue with Louis. It was no use anyway - neither of them needed to argue with the other and they could confidently avoid the problem altogether if they simply never argued again. Josiah knew that that was idealistic and unlikely, even in a perfect world, but tonight he wanted the world to be as close to that as it could be, even with how absolutely not alright it all was. Silence was cast betw…

He wanted to be quick with this, simply because he’d spent too much time dallying around already anyway, and he didn’t want Louis to come offer him some sort of help, or others to worry for him more than they already did. Jo was glad to get this over with, to get himself out there and just enjoy the show he’d put on, so it was no real surprise that his face was stark white with paint already, the moment Louis showed up. Just as he was about to dot on the rest of it too, but there was nothing he …

With Louis gone, the table grew silent initially, until Mara actually got up herself and waved James a quick goodbye - she went to all the people that Louis had told her to ask, in hopes of just making this mans job a little easier, but she saved the worst ones for last. Some of them she simply couldn’t understand, hell, she didn’t even want to understand them and they made no efforts to do the same for the rest of them. Oddballs, all of them, and yet the ringmaster kept them around for some rea…

And yet, there was the tinge of worry again - the crestfallen expression that James thought he saw in Louis face for a second, only for it to disappear soon thereafter. Ah, this was unfortunate in all the wrong ways. “If you say so, but if you feel like you can’t bear it anymore, we’re all here for you.”, he assured the younger man - he might be a giant, and at times almost too intimidating for anyone, but James was a kind soul to those who deserved it, or had a need of him. Of course, someone l…

James was eyeing Louis, who looked like he probably could use a pat on the back or some encouraging words - anything to get his mind off of the things he experienced, simply to give him some peace of mind, but he also felt as if he would touch on something incredibly touchy if he, at all, were to force himself and his opinion on the other man, or even just claim that he could help him for the time being. There was nothing to be gained or understood from continued silence, though. "I get it, he's…

Someone breathed life back into the tent as they all continued parts of their conversations with one another, ignoring most of their surroundings as it just so happened that Louis had come by at a rather unfortunate time, it seemed. Be that as it may, none of them were inclined to necessarily believe him and soon, another bowl of food was thrust in front of what would be Louis' designated spot for the morning, simply so he could sit and enjoy an early start. "That's what they all say.", James po…

When Josiah had sat down with the others, the mood was definitely dampened, but nobody tried to let them get to themselves - it seemed as if they were perfectly fine with playing a game of pretend for as long as they could manage to, but Jo soon find out why that was. In the end, Conny sat there, eyes puffy and teary, her face barely able to keep up with the stupity happening around her, but she was being encouraged through her tears in some way, and Josiah was sitting opposite of her, dumbfound…

Josiah was blissfully unaware of all that occured around him at the very moment, if only for the night. Even the soft click of the old lock on his trailers door, as well as the head that peaked in were lost on him in the haze of sleep that had overcome him involuntarily. All of this was going to culminate in something other than what they had planned it to be, and it only got worse the more time went on, wasn't it? Tonight, his dreams were almost restless; he wasn't sure why they disturbed him a…

This was dragging on and Louis was overstaying his welcome by now. Why did she let him in in the first place? To alleviate his pain? Alice couldn't help with any of that, in fact, she felt as if she were intruding somehow, yet still managed to make it count in its own way. There was, hopefully, a way out of here for all of them, at some point, in some capacity, but Louis was going to have to stay behind for now. Was he important? Not necessarily. But none of them were. "Look, I don't know what y…