Louis wasn't sure if this situation was any better than Josiah being mad. Like this his friend would never get over the fact that Louis wasn't himself anymore and he'd never let him go. He would not leave this place, he would not flee and leave Louis behind, he'd never. Was there ever a chance of that happening? Probably not and maybe Louis was better of stopping to try to get Josiah to hate him. Then again, he'd always be frustrated and angry with Louis, after all he couldn't tell him what was going on an he also couldn't be all laughs and giggle anymore like he used to. There were things he wanted Josiah to hear, but he never listened, like telling him not to bring so many children here. All he said about responsibilities was in a way true too, but it was unnecessary to not let Josiah help somehow. Still, he didn't know what was at stake, he didn't understand the reality nor the dangers, even if Louis made it more digestible with more realistic lies. Josiah still acted the same and would let the children play all day if he was in charge.
Louis wasn't sure what Josiah was saying and shook his head. "I wish you'd understand why I am like this...", he mumbled, but there was no explanation following. Josiah would want to know, but that didn't change a thing. Instead he focused on the task ahead. "It doesn't matter if he gets mad. It's important to you, so I'll try. I can't promise he'll listen to me though." At the very least he would have asked the ringmaster to let Lucas off the hook. There was nothing that man would do to Louis, if he wanted to he'd done so long ago, but he kept him around. Besides, he was somewhat valuable since he took on so many tasks around here. With the ringmaster barely leaving his trailer at all and his minions being noisy and incompetent, Louis was an obvious choice to be somewhat of his assistant. "No one saw but me and I won't tell.", he reassured Josiah as if his own opinion didn't matter and only that of others. Josiah didn't need to worry about anyone's impressions. Before Louis could pull his hands away fully though, he felt Josiah grab them again. "I can't explain...", he reiterated for the hundredth time and maybe this time Josiah would hear what he was saying. He'll need to find his own answers, ask other people or the right questions. In the end he didn't know Louis as well as they both thought he did it seemed.
Louis wasn't sure what Josiah was saying and shook his head. "I wish you'd understand why I am like this...", he mumbled, but there was no explanation following. Josiah would want to know, but that didn't change a thing. Instead he focused on the task ahead. "It doesn't matter if he gets mad. It's important to you, so I'll try. I can't promise he'll listen to me though." At the very least he would have asked the ringmaster to let Lucas off the hook. There was nothing that man would do to Louis, if he wanted to he'd done so long ago, but he kept him around. Besides, he was somewhat valuable since he took on so many tasks around here. With the ringmaster barely leaving his trailer at all and his minions being noisy and incompetent, Louis was an obvious choice to be somewhat of his assistant. "No one saw but me and I won't tell.", he reassured Josiah as if his own opinion didn't matter and only that of others. Josiah didn't need to worry about anyone's impressions. Before Louis could pull his hands away fully though, he felt Josiah grab them again. "I can't explain...", he reiterated for the hundredth time and maybe this time Josiah would hear what he was saying. He'll need to find his own answers, ask other people or the right questions. In the end he didn't know Louis as well as they both thought he did it seemed.